I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is changing (sharing) a Track of Enjoy and Development or judgments of the pride centered on what you require (agree with) in the mind. There is no different way. In the Class, your brain (content) is separate between God and the vanity; and you are selecting constantly with an area as reason for effect.
Types (all things of the world) are miscreations showing the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve managed to get up (miscreated that world) and can give it up anytime by correcting the mind (forgiveness). Correct prayer involves that modification of your brain as God has nothing to do with forms.
What Prayer is Maybe not:
Since you are usually determining, everything you require once you wish is what counts. Once you plead in prayer to have God resolve an application trouble with yet another sort issue, you are asking the confidence mind for support (not God). Those forms and needs are deemed more important than God’s Enjoy which will stay concealed to the amount you select the illusion.
All additional things (forms) are needs. Different brands are wants, desires, position, problems, nausea, individual love (special relationships), presents and targets these days, etc. They are what you pick as substitutes for God’s Enjoy and the confidence can overlook the objective of prayer by using them to help expand the illusion. Therefore, prayer cannot be about “forms” or “needs” in virtually any way.